Pain on a Sunday evening.

I sit here wondering if I will have a day free of pain ever again. I know that sounds crazy...especially to people who have never had more than a day of real pain.
It feels as if barbed wire is wrapped around my ribcage....it felt more like 3 inch nails a month ago so I guess it is getting better. I feel so silly being jealous of my cat who can sleep so peacefully anytime he wants. To be jealous of ape many people who are just walking around not knowing what they have.
I will make it to tomorrow but wonder if I want to go another 20 years like this.
Lupus sucks!